4/30/2009 Gratitude

It may not be in best form to wish time away, but today I am grateful that it is the last day of April. May seems more hopeful to me, and April has been a very hard month. Plus, I am now that much closer to the pool opening in our homeowners community. Yeah! I am also grateful for the lemon-berry slush from Sonic that I am sipping on right now. Sweet and fruity, delish!

4/29/2009 Gratitude

This is one of those days when it is seemingly hard to be grateful as it seems that so much has gone wrong and/or been really, really hard. BUT, it is a beautiful day outside and I am going to go enjoy it for a few minutes. And, I do have food to eat, a comfy bed to sleep in and a roof over my head. Yes, it is one of those days when I need to reach back into the gratitude basics, but that's okay. Every day can't be a great one, but I can be grateful for every day. So thank you for the lessons of the day -- let them make my tomorrow's be easier!

4/28/2009 Gratitude

I am grateful for the Wii Fit. Just bought it today and started to use it right away. It seems to make exercise fun and I feel like I am in control. Perhaps I will get sick of it over time, but for now, if it can help me exercise more, I am grateful.

4/27/2009 Gratitude

I am grateful for a decent night's sleep last night as I don't get them often! I am also grateful that I am feeling a little better today -- I was in so much pain yesterday. And, I am grateful for Spry peppermint gum, yummy.

4/25/2009 Gratitude

I am so grateful for the garage sale yesterday that netted us TWICE what we had hoped and projected. When you are unemployed, that money means a lot. And for us, it means we can use that money to add in a few more "treats" back into our lives. Thank you Universe and all of those that purchased our items!

Teasing

I have been thinking about teasing lately. I hate to be teased and am very sensitive to teasing. I know this came from my childhood because my mother teased me. She thought she was making me strong but really she made me weak. My husband on the other hand, was also teased (by his father mostly) and teasing doesn't bother him. Why?

Is it because we are two different people and therefore take things differently? Is is because the intention and tone of the teasing was different between my mother and his father? Or is my husband simply able to pretend that teasing doesn't bother him?

Any why, when I hate to be teased, do I find myself teasing others? To make matter worse, I think I tease people more when they seem weak. Am I some kind of bully?

As you can tell, I don't really have answers but I am pondering.

4/22/2009 Gratitude

I am grateful for this Earth -- happy Earth Day! I am also grateful that my husband has a job interview today. After a year of unemployment, he is really ready to get back to work. It is yoga day today so that's something to always be grateful for!

4/21/2009 Gratitude

Comcast improved our picture quality after problems from the digital conversion. Thank you! It is sunny and warm. I love it! After my husband's physical today, the doctor said he is healthy. Yeeha!

4/20/2009 Gratitude

I am grateful for a really good night's sleep last night. I am also grateful for the deep and intimate conversation my husband and I had before going to bed last night. Maybe that's why I slept so good?

4/19/2009 Gratitude

I am struggling a little today but I still have plenty to be grateful for -- my meditation group this morning, a sunny warm day and the fact that my body actually feels pretty good today (even if my mind doesn't.)

4/18/2009 Gratitude

I feel pretty good today and that's something to be grateful for! And while it is still raining, the predicted winter storm fizzled a bit. When it stops raining, the grass is going to be GREENER than GREEN and all the spring flowers will be in bloom. I am grateful for nature's splendor!

4/17/2009 Gratitude

I got a good night's sleep last night -- thank you!

I am also thankful for something said by Wayne Dyer that helped me greatly with my perceptions right now. He said to pay attention to synchronicities not necessarily for the messages contained within them but as a reminder to remain connected to spirit. It is then that any message intended for you (if indeed there is a message beyond the need to re-connect) will present itself.

I often spend too much time trying to figure out what it means when I wake up at the same time every night or if my husband keeps having encounters with rabbits.

The message is -- be with spirit. Thank you.

4/16/2009 Gratitude

I am happy and relieved that my nephew turned 18-years-old today. We have waited a long time for this day for reasons that I won't get into here. I am also grateful that I am home tonight with the fireplace going and no where to go in this rain and fog. I am grateful for hot apple crisp right out of the oven - yum!

4/15/2009 Gratitude

A walk with my husband before he left for work. Sitting in our hot tub relaxing. A good yoga class. An evening alone after a weekend of company. A 70 degree day. A little project work for some income. All things I am grateful for today.

4/13/09 Gratitude

I am so grateful for the beautiful sunny day that allowed us to spend time walking around an outdoor mall, enjoying the tulips and other spring flowers. Ah, spring!

4/12/09 Gratitude

Hmm, I struggle a little bit this morning after seeing my last journal entry. You see, the beeping did not stop after buying new smoke detectors. We have now disconnected all the smoke detectors and the beeping continues. So, while I was extremely grateful the other day to find the right model of replacement detectors, I can't be grateful for something being fixed when it wasn't. Hmm.

Today I am grateful that I have been having a great weekend with my visiting nephew. Wii has provided hours of entertainment. As did the art museum and soaking in hot springs. I have tried to set aside the middle of the night beeping in favor of calm and fun times with him. And for that, I am grateful.

Now, if I could only figure out where the beeping is coming from so I can fix it and get a solid night's sleep without the disturbing, beep beep. Universe, I'd be deeply grateful for that! Happy Easter!

4/7/09 Gratitude

After many more sleepless nights due to random beeping, we identified the source (a bad smoke detector) and figured out what we need to do to replace it.

I begged the Universe all the way to Walmart (sorry, I don't usually shop there but the manufacturer said they carry the model we need) -- please let them have what I need, at a price I can afford and the number I need to buy (we decided to replace all 5 in the house rather than have them go "postal" in the future.) Thank you Universe for making all those wishes come true. I bought the last 5 of that model of smoke detectors in the store and they only cost $12 each!

Now Universe I BEG, on my knees, PLEASE let this fix the problem so there is no more beeping in the night. I can't take it. I am exhausted. My nerves are frazzled. I desperately need a break and I know you can give it to me. THANK YOU!

P.S. You may note an earlier post thanking the Universe for identifying the source of the beeps. As it turns out, our alarm system was also beeping but not because of the smoke alarms. We had two random beeping events going on at once! I wish I knew if there were a Universal sign or message in that!

4/4/09 Gratitude

I am grateful for seeing a funny movie yesterday (I Love You, Man) and for friends buying us dinner. I am grateful that we got to see some neighbors yesterday that we had hardly seen all winter. I am grateful for my warm home on this snowy day.

4/1/09 Gratitude

No joke! Today I am grateful for a new feeling of hopefulness. I have been feeling quite down lately and after a good night's sleep last night, I feel better this morning. I don't know how long it will last (lately my joy has been fleeting) I will ride it like a surfer riding a wave -- for as long as I can. Hang ten!